Moral Monday: Being On One

It feels good. It feels nice. It comes on a sudden burst of energy that people may not understand when it happens. The feeling of being on one.
To some, this is simply a feeling of cockiness that forms after years of being on the top. For others, like myself, the ability simply comes from evaluating the life you are living and how you choose to live by looking past the negative and appreciating all the positive in your life. I am thankful to be able to have learned how to look at the top side of things rather than worrying about how a past action has hurt me because I feel as though you grow more when you can clear your mind of negativity and simply live as happy as you can. Being On One isn't a statement but more so a way of life.

Think about it, as a black man, do you think it is attractive to stand on the corner selling drugs and seriously say you are Being On One when in reality you are making less than minimum wage? (Divide the amount you make in a day by the amount of time you spent making that money and see what the number is) Do you think Being On One is chasing the guys that look good and drive the nice cars when in reality they are using those nice cars good looks to find the girls that will chase them so they dont have to do any work and get all the play? (Yes, I am trying to say those type of guys do not believe in sticking with one sex partner) Do you think living in the limelight is a statement of power or corruption? (Yes, I am saying that not everyone in the limelight deserves to be there from the actions that got them there) Being On One is an impact within itself.

The Movement of Being On One:

Believe In Yourself
Never trust in anyone else to believe in you. You must instill in yourself something others cannot find for you. Yes, you may need help in your journey to discovering belief within yourself but it is OK to do so. There is no wrong in getting help through others. Just dont expect others to find your beliefs. You must ALWAYS find your own beliefs. No true believer found belief through others, it came from within like spirit and pride or thought and action.

Stay True to Your Self
If you dont think you are wrong. You are not wrong. If you aren't comfortable with doing certain things. Dont do it. Never be swayed by others unless you are staying true to yourself. Although this is easier said than done, life is built upon influence from others around you. Being influenced by others comes parallel with staying true. Be influenced by things that are a part of yourself. Dont be influenced by things that dont relate to you because that will simply drag you down an unaware alleyway asking for a crackhead to mug you and leave you for dead.

Do the Right Thing
Right or Wrong. Black or White. Good or Bad. Love or Hate. This is pretty self explanatory. If you dont know what it feels like to do the right thing and how it feels to do the right thing let me know so I can keep you in my prayers.

Never Back Down
Bullies are set in life to test your strength. Users and abusers are put in life to test your strength within yourself. People down others to test their strength. If you allow another man or woman to let you become belittled by them you deserved it. We are ALL on the same spectrum. We have all been made from the same plan. The only difference is the mission in each plan. Nothing can be considered more powerful unless they found the ability to become more powerful than my maker. And from what I understand, I dont think our maker would be dumb enough to make something of his creation that could potentially take his throne. It wouldnt make sense for one to do so because if the maker needed to change something, it might actually be hard. Never back down unless you are staring in the essence of your maker. Everything else is irrelevant objects that try and replicate his essence when in reality it can never be reproduced.

Know Thyself
If you dont love yourself, how can you love others? If you never experienced yourself angry, how do you know how to handle it? If you were never happy, how do you know what tru happiness means? Think about this. Not everyone experiences what it means to experience something in its greatest form until they experience it so if you have been able to see yourself at its extreme, thank your maker for giving you that opportunity because not all have done so.

Respect/Love Your Maker
They say the good die young. Everything happens for a reason. Nobody has a plan for life other than our maker. Praise its essence. Worship its greatness because some will see it or never see it at all. The only way to know you will see it is if you can honestly say you have lived in its shadow of Trueness. Im not saying go to church every Sunday. Im not saying forgive yourself for all the bad you have done. All I am saying is if you died today, could you say to yourself you lived true to yourself and your maker?

Longevity Yourself
Pretty Obvious. Eat Right. Do everything in Proportion. Never over consume. Never over indulge.

Never Forget
Forgive everyone. Forgive yourself. Never forget what they did because they will do it again if you forget. The saying goes "You hurt me once, shame on you. You hurt me twice, shame on me."

Continue to Learn Through Yourself and Others Around You
Never stop learning. Life is a lesson. To reach the end of life with a good mindset, never stop learning. Never stop observing. Never stop teaching the predecessors. Never stop giving back. Never stop helping. Never stop thanking. never stop producing. never stop working. Never stop stay True.

Moral Word: Legit

Moral Monday: Keeping Highed Up

As I sit in my room today, I listen to my roommate as he speaks to his girlfriend on the phone. They are having a deep discussion about something on facebook that someone posted. There was a posting of a black man that was being held upon by police officers for some reason. People were making a big deal about it because he had a baby in his hands while this was occurring. The guy was obviously using the baby as a shield to stop the cops from throwing him on the ground. This story is besides the point though.

I was just thinking of how life is and the way the world works and I just realized how distractions are causing us the become stupified. A good example of this is facebook. "OMG, did you see what such-and-such put on facebook. It was so rude." "Why did she unfriend me? I didnt deserve that. I am hurt." "Yo I have more friends than you on facebook so you suck!"

We are being sucked into the false high. Hear me out. Distractions are anything that causes the human population to forget about the life they live and have a life on a digital atmosphere. The idea passes time but takes us away from the things we should really be focusing on. Family. Friends. Love. Life.

Our family is the connections we have in life. They can be your biggest ally and decept you at the same time.The thing to know about family is appreciating the family aspect of a family instead of the faults. Every family is dysfunctional in some type of way so deal with it and stay high about the people you cherish close.

Moral: Stay Highed Up

The Kendy Kronicals: Just Another in the Litter

As an old Chevy Blazer crawls up to the farm, a short haired, brown spotted pup notices and is curious to see why someone has decided to travel to a distance on a random fall afternoon. It comes to notice that she, in fact, was the concern for the day. As she was picked up and carried into this foreign automobile, she couldn’t help but show fear and confusion as to why she was the one to leave her fellow stray dogs behind. As the drive to another place continued yonder, she couldn’t help but feel more and more as though her life was about to change dramatically. Good or bad, it was her decision to see what these new people had in store for her and whether she was going to like it or run away the first chance she got. After making it to her destination, the new people began calling her Lexus as though it was her name all along. Time and time again, she questioned what the purpose of these new people were in her life, why they were here, why they chose her as an addition to the family. But then, one day, all of this became clear to her why she was with these people. She was more than just apart of the litter with these people. She wasn’t another dog looking for a home with these people. She was, from what she could understand, Lexus.

Her purpose was to make an unknowingly deep impact in a group of people’s lives that will never be forgotten. When times were good, she was there to experience the fun and laughter with her new family. When times were rough, she became the object of attention to break the negativity. When nothing was going on, she would nudge somebody to take her outside so she can see what’s going on out there. Sure enough, in the beginning, the outside was her love. If any trespasser stepped foot on her lawn, she made sure they knew who’s land it was with brute force and aggressiveness. For some, she would lay off easy. For others, she never seemed to find a medium with them, even if shown they mean no harm. Her strategy of aggressiveness was as simple as a chess match. When a pawn was moved closer to her faction, she always had to send the Queen to do her bidding, no matter what happened. All in all, it was out of pure love for her family. She never had a bad taste for anyone in the family unless she thought something was purely out of hand. In that moment, she let her side known to everyone how she felt. Although her way of talking was not theirs, everyone understood. A few years down the road, the family began splitting up in a sense. During this time, Lexus didn’t know what to do with herself because she didn’t understand.

The family she came to know and understand was leaving her she thought. Through the years, their visits were at times far and few in between, but never a problem with her. Jealousy always came into play when dealing with her older brother, but the jealous never overpowered the bond they shared. They came to terms with understanding each other’s ways entirely too well through all the time they spent together dealing with each other. Although she hated to always see her brother come and go, she didn’t mind having all of the attention when it was just her and mom. From what was once a question of faith in having a dog grew to a question of faith whether one could live without a companion like Lexus. In the years of her brother leaving and father visiting every so often, a companionship was deeply grained within the remaining couple. From what would seem as annoyance at times was merely obvious love and envy for one another.

Lexus was always the type to lead than follow. This was something that was triggered from within her soul. But, when it came to her mother, she knew following was the only way to understand. As the years continued, it became normal to see mother walking around and hear the pitter patter of feet behind her. Lexus was a wonderer and made it clear with everything she did. There are some dogs you can honestly say have no smarts, but not Lexus at all. To say how many times Lexus outsmarted her family would turn this blurb into a bestselling novel. Her father favored Lexus greatly. Everytime he came over, her face would fill with joy and her tail would wag like nothing before. She always knew when Dad would come, fun was bound to follow. Lexus always found the most joy when everyone was together again. It was how a family should be and she understood that as she got older.

The most important key is understanding that her family did not just see her as just another dog in the litter. She is and will always be Lexus. By far, the most unique dog you could ever meet. If you were unfortunate to experience Lexus’ territorial disputes, or signs of being spoiled, or uncanning ability to get away with entirely too much, I feel sorry for you. With that said, I hope you enjoyed this blurb about a dog that will never die in the hearts that she has touched.

In the Sleepbox: Up in Smoke

So I fell asleep the other day and I awaken on my porch. I am sitting outside looking at my dog doing her business on the lawn and a friend of my pops out of nowhere....literally. We sit and chat for a bit about life and things going on in both of our lives that have taken up a ton of our time and efforts. For some reason, this dreams ends in both of us taking a smoke of good old fashioned tobacco. Why?? I dont know. I dont enjoy smoking cigarettes so I dont get it. I have been trying to figure out what this dream meant but I have no clue at all. So I thought I would share

Moral Monday: I Salute You!

So I have been thinking about this awhile and have not been sure how to talk about this subject without possibly growing some animosity somewhere. The military comes off as being a sensitive topic to some. We have the"Don't Ask, Don't Tell" thing going on right now. Vets talk about how they were done wrongfully after Vietnam. We have current war going on because of people high up wanting more money it seems. Instead of focusing on the aftermath and intro to wars and money and drama of that nature, lets talk about the people's experiences that served this country with their lives.

I have always wondered, as a civilian, how much information soldiers get when sent over to certain places. I know they are given info on their mission, their objectives (there HAS to be objectives), underestimation of how long they will be on tour with this (yep, underestimation), maybe a victory cigar? Alright, this is just to start things off. But seriously, my biggest thought when thinking about military actions taking place and troops being sent over to a country they may not know much about is simply, were they really told why they are being sent to a dangerous area to risk their lives?

President George W. Bush sent troops overseas to fight the war on terror...to fight the war on terror. I want to know what they were actually told. "Alright maggots, we will be heading over to the Middle East to fight back in this war on terror! Terror has stricken our country with more terror after more terror and I want to keep expressing that there is a war on TERROR so you know there is a war on terror!"...you guys think I am trying to make a joke but I really want to know what they were told to think that they were serving a reasonable purpose for putting their lives in dangers. Now, the war on terror seems to be most notably known as the war on oil. Innocent parent's babies being sent over to fight a war because people wanted more power (money). Who wudda thunk it?!

Now, we have real disasters in the world occurring, New Orleans, Haiti, Africa (People forget about this continent overall), and now Japan. It is good to see troops sent over to assist in these issues because this deals with the lives of people surviving. I don't recall the last time I had a bowl of Oil Krunch for breakfast. To top that, Libya isn't exactly in the best condition right now and I can see, from what they are telling us, why troops would begin being sent over to that deathtrap.

I simply bring this up to hopefully spark some one's attention into understanding the position soldiers put themselves into and how many individuals don't really think about how valuable they are to have stepped to the challenge of serving their country no matter how fraudulent they see the government. From talking to friends who are in military services, the common thing I have noticed from speaking with soldiers is that they serve their country for the people that fill the country, not for the government it stands for. I thought that was pretty interesting.

Moral: The next time you see someone suited up in army/navy/marine gear, bow your head because they deserve your utmost respect no matter what they look like or have actually done to contribute to you being alive and living well.

Setback Saturday: Controversy Kills the Cat

Have you ever just sat back and thought about why we as people are different. Of all the personalities, or sexual orientations, or nationalities, or mental conditions, or height, weight, lefty, righty, large boobs small boobs, fetish fiend, or whatever else you can think about that makes us different than one another, it all boils down to race being the biggest issue of them all.

Let's play a game. I am a white female on about to get on a public transit bus. The area this bus services can be a college campus with a very low crime rate.She didnt want to stand on the bus because her heels were making her feet hurt. The female notices that all seats are filled except a seat by a really hairy guy that looks like he just snorted 8 to 12 lines with pit stains or a cleaned up intelligent looking black guy that is easily on a journey of epic proportions that DONT involve getting your attention in any type of way or worse try and rape you... the female, clearly affected by media decides the best fit for her safety would be to sit next to the hairy coke head. Now, what is wrong with this picture? Spelling it out for you would be telling you what you already know so Im not doing it.

A man walks into a gas station on his trip to Las Vegas from Dallas. He stops in a small town to fill up on gas and take a potty break. When he enters the station, the guy behind the clerk immediately tells him he is not permitted in his store. When the man asks why, the guy tells him that he doesnt want get blown up. Can you guess the ethnicity of this person? I know I can.

So seriously, why does the color of one's skin tell a story about someone before you even knew anything about them? How did this thing of race become one of the most controversial things in life for everyone, and directed toward minorities more than anything else! If I ever find a solution to get people to shut UP about them having a bad experience with a black person, or a serious disagreement with some girl from china, or felt used by the columbian guy they just had sex with, realize that all because ANOTHER person is the same color doesn't mean they think the same!

Setback: Lets take a triple-jump this time, the leap to getting rid of stupidity seemed to make things worse.

Setback Saturday: Existence

Has anyone ever sat down and seriously thought about the idea of being alive? Seriously, I'm not going crazy I am just speaking my mind. Lol. The idea that EVERYONE in the world is different in some way. How crazy is that?! Billions of people, different sizes, colors, textures, body types, features, hair, feet, hands, innies, outties, male/female genitalia, it is rediculous. And the biggest thing is that everyone has a soul, a lifestyle, a different way they see life through what they experience while being alive on this land we call earth in a solar system with no other form of contact to anything else in this dimensia. I think its insane.

I am simply saying this stuff because I was thinking one day of what it means to be a part of society as a person and then I began to think about what it means to be alive. Some people say being alive is having sex, or making use of yourself, or connecting with your spirit, or yadda yadda yadda. The thing about it is when you really think about what it means to have an existence like we have and live the life as we know it without knowing how exactly all of this came to be to begin with, you begin to realize how thankful you should be to have parents that gave up millions of sperm, an egg, 7-10 months, pain and unger of lugging you around, then birthed you into a world that you will experience in your own way with your own thoughts, your own being, I think that is the best gift anybody could give to another person. But that still just makes me wonder how this all came to be. I'm talking about before God, like who made god? Did that being above pop out of thin air and give us the beautiful experience to live on the great one's own? Who knows. Will we ever know? Hmm maybe when the Mayan Calender runs out. Lets see what happens then I guess...

But until then. I thank the highest beings of all beings for allowing me to live. Deuces

Setback: Being depressed makes no sense. If you can't make your own fun other than enjoying thinking of bad thoughts, consider helping yourself out by caring about the life you were given instead of potentially taking it away. Its your life, not the world's.

Setback Saturday: Is Lying Wrong when Protecting?

Lets think about this people. When you were in elementary school and saw someone being 'bullied,' the teacher pointed you out to ask you, "What happened Kendal? Why does Jeremy have a black eye?" Do you tattle or take a hit and not say a word? I feel liek most people at this age would havent said anything out of the whole "Dont snitch" thing. Yea that is still around for sure. But lets get serious.

Have you ever thought about lying to protect someone from hurting or causing harm? Did you not want to hurt your spouse because you were slightly cheating that one time? Did you mess up a friend's relationship with someone else but didn't want to let it known publicly? Were you wrongfully accused of something but never told who actually did the crime?

I feel as though there is a limit to what one can actually say to people and not worry about what those implications can do. Many people can take things the wrong wayside not fully understand your perspective at times. I feel as though speaking the truth can set you free by being upon unneeded issues at times. People will not always accept what you do for them or like how you deal with situations but it is important o understand how to take these situations and amend to them so you have less drama in your life.

I have secrets just like everyone else. It is obviously my choice to keep these secrets in but sometimes the best thing to do is lock it away an forget about it instead of ponder about how someone may feeling they found out about something you did for them or to them. Although I like to know information about certain things, I also know when to stop and realize if knowing this will actually matter down the road. Did my last girlfriend cheat on me? I don't know. Are my friends my real friends? I dont know. Will we stay friends for awhile? Who knows. Sometimes living in the moment is the best thing to do.

Setback: There is a reason why god put our brains higher than our hearts.

Moral Monday: If I was a Book

This question is simple and to the point. If I was a book, what kind of book would I be? I know most people would say  "What kind of Super Hero/Star/ Famous Person/ Animal/ Inanimate Object would you be?" You fill in the blank. Books hold much more substance that all of those options above. Why? Well, its a book! Books make your mind wonder, books test your imagination skills, books sharpen your intellect as a person because it makes you think! Now, tell me which one of those options above do that? Yea, didn't think so.

The Cover

If I was a book, I would look extremely dull. Although well manufactured with top-of-the-line material, thicker pages, hardback, sturdy with a quality leather strap to keep it closed like a fortress, the book would not look appealing to any soul that gave it a first glance. If the Angels and Demons was next to the book, people would probably screech in disapproval on why a book that looks so dull and unwelcoming should be put next to a bestseller. The thing about this book is that it would ALSO be a bestseller. Not gassing. People would be even more confused as to why it is liked by so many people but looks like it won't say anything spectacular in it. It could even get mistaken for a textbook for a class...yea.

The Intro

As you open the book, you are still unsettle in your stomach about how this $50 novel is worth more than 90% of books out and why your mother, father, brother, sister, cousin, aunt, uncle, and best friend are so religious about reading this book over and over again. The intro starts out like any other book, "Such and such and such and such embark on a journey that will test their will as a human being blah blah blah blah blah." Nothing pleasing so far in the intro but then, you see something, something you wouldn't have expected before. Something that opened up a whole can of worms and caused you to not even think of putting the book back on the display with the rest of bestseller books. You found something in this book you have only seen in the elite of books. Purpose. Dynamic. Culture. 'I don't think I can let this book go' you say? I didn't think so. Read on.

The Plot

Every plot has a twist. Most plots keep the turnarounds coming to confuse the reader even more. The plot in this book somehow continues to second guess the reader every chapter. The book is very to the point and has no problem being a real and to the point, no bullshit rundown. Although books cannot be successful without some type of drama, the book handles drama with a "foot in the mouth" feel when dramatic situations occur. The suspense is enough to bring excitement to anyone's day. It is common for people to discuss the book in amazement, "I still don't understand why he did that. Like, I understand but, I still don't get it and it kills me inside!" The discussion is halted with a smirking lad that has to chime  in and say "Just keep reading. your answer will be found eventually if it is at all." The action, at times, can be too much to handle "What is with this guy and girls?! Where does he find these people?" The will of the reader is truly tested by the ups and downs of the book. It is common for a reader to take some time off from reading the book due to an overload of so much happening at once. All in all, when the book is finished, the reader feels satisfied and in a sense like they learned a life altering lesson about journeys, trips and travels (If you think about it, all of these mean different things). Most readers cannot place exactly what the motive of the book is until they are three quarters of the way through it. Even then, confusion is still in the forefront when the climax hits.

The Climax

The most exciting part of the book. The big turnaround. The thing that gets the reader to finish the damn book! The climax in this book would be more like beauty in the eye of the beholder. Everybody is a critic and everyone has their own viewpoints, meaning not everyone will enjoy the big turnaround of the big. But of course, the point is not for them to fully enjoy it, the key is understanding it and justifying it in their mind. Once this occurs, people act like they just saw zeitgeist or something. Their thoughts on the book and the way they perceived it completely changes, the way they may see their life may change, the way things happen in life may be taken differently. They are going to want to finish the book whether it takes three days of no sleep or a few hours. It's kinda like seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, knowing that its there and near, but also knowing it is still a decent distance away and still wanting to finish without any breaks in between...maybe to sip on some wine or something. The climax is when 95% of questions are answered to the reader. Although the majority of answers are now of access to them in their mind, the big questions still stay unanswered until the end of the book.

The Resolution

The book ends on a positive note. Not on some happily ever after stuff but in a light that shines toward motivation and accomplishment rather than gloominess and dismay. The reader finishes the book and immediately begins a letter to the author on how they felt about reading it, etc. etc.

My thought of me being a book came from me thinking of how I see myself and how I evaluate myself as a person from social interaction and my own thoughts. The majority of the things I described come from other people and how they saw me initially, currently, and where they see me going. A book is something many don't see as of importance anymore because of the youth being sucked into the media and such. Hopefully this is a book that can change something like that when given the chance. But until then, this blog will be my outward calling.

Moral: Give your brain judgement and thought. Media can only do so much to give you intellect. I don't think watching "The Matrix" will give you much thought into reality. You might learn something you didn't know before or you might learn something about yourself if you expand your mind.

Setback Saturday (Friday, New Year's Eve Edition): Ride the Trip

What is a trip? Is it something you take with family or friends? Did you take too many drugs and began freaking out? Or maybe you just hit a part of your life where the road is getting harder and harder to follow. This is very common in this day and age to have a sense or feeling of not being able to ride the trip of life anymore. According to statistics, people jumping off the trip and stopping are higher than ever. Medications for anything and everything fill your TV screens like they are fine to take without and issues even though they will explain the side effects after telling you how good the drug will make you feel. So with that said, my question to you is what trip should you ride, an outside trip or your very own?

A trip can be understood in many ways. It can be you taking a physical ride away from the world, or riding right into what the world has to offer, or even taking a ride that lands you on the moon...in your mind of course. Trips are what life is all about. Without a trip, where is the story? Should trips be avoided? Should we all avoid each other and stay in our houses without venturing out to interact with other life forms? Are opinions and viewpoints what make trips great?

I hope all of you who read this by now understand that when I say trips, I am talking about things in life that make you happy, sad, angry, excited, bored, scared, hurt, and any other emotion you can think of that I didn't mention. You must make the best out of trips you have. Life in this world is limited and you never know when it can end. Why live in a trip if you dont have to? Riding a trip is more of a mindset than a physical trip. Being rich is not a trip, being happy is. Being crippled is not a trip, feeling sad is. Taking drugs is not a trip, avoiding problems with those drugs is a trip. If you want to ride a trip that never gets old, look at life ten-fold. To have a happy trip does not mean being the greatest, or the richest, or having fame, a happy trip is what you make out of a situation. They say the poorest people in the world are the happiest because they found a medium of being satisfied with what they have instead of what they want. They also say the people you see as amazing and great have the lowest self esteem from what they had to do to get where they wanted to be. My thought to you is I expressed two extremes, where do you lie and how will you change to make your trip a positive one instead of being negative?

Setback: Dont avoid the trip, ride it until you think you had enough. And when you had enough, find another destination.

Jay Z Mixtape Gone Too Far

So I decided I wanted to go on some website and download some recent mistakes that just came out and I come across a mixtape by Jay Z called Dear Summer.

First off I already have a problem with Jay Z because of his background dealing with some devil worship type stuff. When I say devil worship I am not talking about masonry because what people don't understand about masonry is that masonry is an organization filled with smaller organizations in it. Factions, if you will.

Masonry is a great thing to be apart of but the thing is there are so many ways you can go with it. If I was to join something like that, I would not use it to abuse what I have learned. I would take the information I learned and make life happen. Not seem like I am trying to defy god.


-- Pay It 4Ward

Generations before us

The way exertions before us think because of what they have experienced in their life is remarkable indeed. They were more worried about having a meal to eat when they got home than learning something in school. Our generation is completely different and is only worried about what the latest hot item will be to come out.

I can't deal with it enough how crazy I feel about having no use to impress people. I choose to impress myself with the knowledge I have and the experiences I have been through in my life. I am really happy with the mindset I have and I wish people weren't so materialistic and simply wanted to look outside and enjoy the current view they have of life.

Moral: if you don't believe in god, believe in the natural beauty he has given us


-- Pay It 4Ward

Setback Saturday: Touching back with old ties

Its good to talk to people from high school that have changed for the better but in a different way than yourself because they went a different route.

I attended my neighbor's nephew's graduation party for high school the other day and I was happy to see many people from my graduating class were in attendance. I ended up having a really long conversation with a friend from high school I haven't seen since we graduated.

What really stunned me was how we were both on the same page with a ton of things we talked about. The big difference was how different our lifestyles were in the past four years. I was off at college learning through other people while this person stayed at home learning themselves and their child.

Through this discussion, I came to the conclusion that life doesn't matter in terms of what you do to get where you are at in life, it's all about learning how to survive in this day and age. Life is about survival and nothing else.

We were talking about all the kids from high school that were killed, in jail, or completely MIA and that's when we unifyingly came to the conclusion that life is all about survival and knowing how to do it.

Setback: learn about life before life takes you over.

-- Pay It 4Ward

Location:Churchill,United States

Sidebar: Engineering is too much for people

Engineering is too much for people It's wild how many people I know that have either dropped out, switched majors, or did something else wild because engineering took them over. It is truly an accomplishment to graduate from penn state with an engineering degree. All the struggle you go through just to graduate is completely rediculous. Non engineers will never understand unless they take a class specifically for engineers. Then you will completely understand the situations they go through. You always have the genious in a room full of normals and there will always be the complete slackers. What's important is the middle people. The middle people who are monoriies. They have the toughest position to be in because not only are they looked down upon as not being as smart as their white counterparts, it is tough to find more people to study with as well as relate with. 


I am simply going off some random stuff but yea, this is how I feel.

Setback Saturday: Why Me?

As a black man living in a nation run by fat white old men, you tend to wonder how do you fit in, where you are actually from, and how do you plan on surviving. The key question to what I am trying to understand is below:

Where am I really from and wat can I call my own?

It is hard to reach a point in your own life and know that you do not fully know where exactly you are from or how you came to get where you are. Of course, I know a tiny bit of where I am from. My family is based in Mississippi and Maryland and still lives there...but what else? What else can I recall about my roots?

I know I am African descent but what part of Africa am I from? What happened to my ancestors for them to find their way to the Americas? Why were they chosen as individuals to be sent over to the Americas as Africa's trash that they didn't want anymore? Why were we stripped of our identities and given names that do not represent our background, but our owner's backgrounds? These are all questions I have for the people that did what they did to my ancestors and I just wish there was one person that could answer them.

Setback: Things in your life you may take for granted may actually be the most important morsel of information you may ever need to know. So write it down and remember it.

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Reproduction is the Point of it All

Have you ever noticed and realized everything you do in life sums up to one actual literal thing? Do you know what that one thing is? I think you guessed correct. Breeding. It doesnt make any sense at all but at the same time you would think life means more than just breeding but in reality, nothing is more important than reproducing!

Why did your parents want to have kids? Ask them. One of their answers may be "I always wanted to have kids." "The family needs to keep growing!." "I want legacies of me and my family."

The whole point they are trying to make is saying that they dont want their family to die out and not continue in the world we call earth. So with that said, you must continue breeding, your kids must continue breeding! Everyone is selfish enough to say they want to continue their families legacy going and not have a problem about it.

So when choosing a partner occurs, evaluations are always taken out with more meaning. A guy sees a girl with nice boobs and a pretty face, in his eyes, he is just being horny, but in reality he analyzed her by saying her breast are big meaning they can hold enough milk for my babies. Her face is standard enough to have kids with her and be sure that they would be able to find a mate. Think about it!!!! Its crazy how we as humans are animal like in many regards.

Pun Intended.

Moral Monday (On Wednesday): A Thoughtful Quote

I don't really remember where I saw this but I just know I had to write it down because it was one of the most thought provoking quotes I have ever seen...ever.

"What lies behind us and lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us."

 Ralph Waldo Emerson

How do you feel about this when you read it? Does it make you feel good about yourself? Does it make you realize how small your existence is on this earth if you stay on an average Joe life? Do you think it means nothing at all?

I personally find this quote amazing because it says very much about how people should take situations they go through. A situation is something you go through that stays around for a specified amount of time. Some last longer than others. Many are short acquaintances you come by. But, the majority are copable to deal with. The idea that people must think more within for thoughts and ideas is great. Although, I firmly agree that the way a person acts is made up of 70% their environment and 30% their own beliefs. The key is that 30% is what makes you different from the person sitting right next to you going through the same things in life you went through. That is why, uniqueness, in itself is something given to us by a supreme being above. And the uniqueness you are given should be cherished by you and the people around you with all its mite!

So my moral to you is more of a comment than a moral this time. Be happy with what/who you are. Your mind and body can withstand things you may never come to understand until you pass into another era of your life/existence I will call it.

Setback Saturday: Unmarried Black Women

This is an article I came across on the web. I think it is very controversial in terms of the black men in the United States and what they offer to black women. Obviously, there is a draught of "good" black men. Am I happy about this? Obviously not. Do I wish I could change this? I can try to. I honestly do feel as though many black women have standards that are high because of what men in this country do. Think about it. Women want a man who will take charge, who is handsome, has a future, a career, can make them laugh, can be a good lover, a good listener, doesnt carry baggage, and all of the above. But in all seriousness, there are men that do fit these requirements from women. The problem is there is more of an abundance outside of the black race. The change needs to happen by having more "brothers" who fit these assets.

I dont believe in what Steve Harvey says in the video about black women wanting too much out of a black man. I believe they want what other women get out of a guy. All of the above. A woman shouldnt have to dumb down their standards because black men havent been able to get with the times and past all the depression and slavery as fast as black women have been able to. Yea that was probably a ruthless statement but its true. More black women are doing Uplifting things for themselves than their black male counterparts. I am simply stating reality. If you cant take what I say or think I am wrong about what I say, please Enlighten me.

If we were to change this, the first thing would be to stop all contraband against black men. Everytime the TV is turned on to news, a black man is on their doing a crime. Why is that? I dont know why the guy was so dumb to do the crime but when you think about it, all races in this society commit crime. But its the black man that gets put on display like he is the most evil doer ever... When people growing up see these images of how black men are displayed, it does not help their mindset at all. It underlyingly puts a negative aura in their mind believe it or not. Proof is that a person's personality is made 70% from his enviornment and 30% from his/herself. So keep in mind, the news is your enviornment just as much as the guy on your block selling coke to little kids. Everything corralates to a result so rememeber to take in what you see and consider the implications it has on you as a person.

Of course the obvious change as well are to bring more guidance to black males. Statistically, many black males grow up without a father figure in their life to look up to. Although some have the ability to overcome this, many do not. Being that father figure in a man's life is one of the most important things anybody can do. It truly saves lives and hardships. Now, with that said, I will leave this open for discussion.

Setback: Stop using a crutch as a setback and make something better happen in your life. Dont settle for less.

Spring 2010

It is now my 8th semester at The Pennsylvania State University. For most people and majors, this would be their last majors. For me, not in hell. This is the first semester I did not want to come back. Like at all. Not to see college friends, not to see the social life, not to see any work. I just did not want to come back at all. That may sound a bit harsh but the circumstances I place myself in dont make it any better. I will have to at LEAST be here for another semester so it sucks to know the majority of peopel I started school here with will be departing shortly. At least, I hope they are and not staying here. I just thought about talking about this on the blog because I am not in a good mode right now and I need some type of inspiration and relaxation. Relaxation comes from this so this helps a bit but other than that. Yea...naw.

Also, due to recent starting of school, the blogging will be limited once again. I am going to start corralating what I talk about in my Moral Monday and Setback Saturday to deal with school issues, problems I have with the way things go, and of course exams!! I hope you will enjoy this. I will call this season of my blog "The Referendum of Kendal Coates or School: A common occurrence in College Life." I think it will be AMAZING.

Over and out

Moral Monday: Act Like It!

What is really annoying is when you reach out to someone about an issue that is important to you and they shove it in your face like you are dumb for thinking that is cool to talk about. I understand if people do this whenever they arent close to you because I know I do it. But, if if you have a good relationship with someone and they begin to act as though your views dont matter or what you have to say isnt important enough to listen to, that is not right at all. Especially if you listen to them in times when you feel as though what they have to say is meaningless but you still listen because they do the same for you. This just came to my attention recently because people dont know the decency of having some type of sympathy even when they are not in the mood for sympathy.

Treat others as you would want to be treated. I know you wouldnt enjoy if I shut you down every time you had something dumb to say. I know being a friend of mine, I can be very random and strange, but instead of making me feel stupid for being myself could you just ignore me when I do it? I would rather be ignored than feel like a complete idiot. If I had the idiot part coming ok ill take it but honestly, come on. People know when they are being nice and rude and inconsiderate. If you grew up in a typical Americanized household, you had to have that talk at least a few times. Rude people get no where!

Moral: Listen to Yo Momma and Act Right.